My heartbeat skips a beat...=) so what is this, this time?? Dunno...

I wish it'd rained non-stop like ysterday so u..silly, can hug me tite and won't let go....i feel so special.......felt like time stood still for us alone there. And i guess my arms are truly meant to hug you....it's my most favourite memory ever babe...i swear...i'll still wait..i promise....i heart you...



Dunno whassup with the title..but i realli don wanna grow up sometimes. Just the thought of turning 25 next year March isn't something i'm quite looking forward to. Hmm..Paddles told me to just have fun in whatever way i can each day. I adore him. Seriously. His carefree thinking (even tho he is more lost than i am) is what draws me closer to him daily.

So plans for next few months and so:

-Make passport so can zoom anywhere i wanna
-Plan nephew's 1'st birthday bash
-Planning KL trip with ex-schoolmates next year April
-Planning more trips to Phuket with Ah2 (I'll be a lamp post..damn)
-Hopefully some trips with Paddles someday.. =)

Erm...just a few to name...and so i can't wait! YaY!!Paddles is leaving in December to Desaru..gonna miss him shit tho it's only 4a day...then in February to KL for a coupla of days.

What have i been up to??? Practically nutthing but just pure giddiness....and as embarrassing as it's gonna sound, i had my first bike ride the other day. Haha...i just had to put this. So i'll noe and i'll recall how silly i look in that oversize jacket which Paddles made me wear and in turn made me look as if i'm wearing nuthing beneath it, when in fact i was wearing a white mini dress...i can only blame Paddles. =) Been forced to cut down Coke..junk..painkillers..and also learning to listen to Electro House..Haha...silly don even noe what he wants MOST TIMES. He drives me nuts daily but at the same time, he keeps me sane, keeps me calm and he keeps me believing in myself. Paddles makes me smile again.Such weird usage of verbs but dis is how he is.....

By the way friends, you guys believe in platonic friends?? Its sucha freaky term to me...i never wanna believe in it....................but.......................oh i dunno....................haiz....



Paddles said this song is about me....

Supertramp - The Logical song

When I was young, it seemed that life was so wonderful,
A miracle, oh it was beautiful, magical.
And all the birds in the trees, well theyd be singing so happily,
Joyfully, playfully watching me
But then they send me away to teach me how to be sensible,
Logical, responsible, practical.
And they showed me a world where I could be so dependable,
Clinical, intellectual, cynical.
There are times when all the worlds asleep,
The questions run too deepFor such a simple man.
Wont you please, please tell me what weve learnedI know it sounds absurd
But please tell me who I am.
Now watch what you say or theyll be calling you a radical,
Liberal, fanatical, criminal.
Wont you sign up your name, wed like to feel youre
Acceptable, respecable, presentable, a vegtable!
At night, when all the worlds asleep,The questions run so deep
For such a simple man.
Wont you please, please tell me what weve learned
I know it sounds absurd
But please tell me who I am.

Errrr...freaky and kind true in a way huh??? Hahah...

Others includes:
RHCP- Under the bridge
Stratovarious- Will my soul eva rest in Peace
Metallica- Fade to Black

HIS, i included:
Avril Lavigne- When You're Gone
Boys Like Girls- Hero and Heroine
Himself:
RHCP-Tell me Baby
Nickleback-Rockstar
Weezers-Beverly Hills


Haha....analyze 4 me pls?? Coz i tink its freaking real......Gasp!



The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting
It couldn’t be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you that I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible to find
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep
And hold onto your words
‘Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find


Now i wonder who's exactly impossible to find who....